Goodbye Summer, Goodbye Childhood.

I cannot believe summer will be ending in so soon.  I just want more time.  More time to hang out with my friends.  More time to think about the creative ideas that pop into my head.  More time to read.  More time before my childhood ends.  It will not be too long before everything changes, and where will that leave me?

 

To Be So Young, To Be So Old.

In less than 12 full days I will legally be allowed to consume alcoholic beverages, and this fact alone depresses the hell out of me.  I wish I knew why.  Lately, all I can think of is everything that has ever happened to me thus far in life.  I was sixteen, and everything was so what?  Full of opportunity?  I don't know if that is the right way to put it, but it's the only way I can think of right now.  I feel like I should have made so many decisions by now that I haven't made.  Kissed so many people that I haven't kissed.  I have so many stretch marks that I shouldn't have.  It is a weird feeling being so old, yet having all of your elders claim you are so young.  It all makes me wonder:  am I who I was?  How long will it take for me to get to who I will be?  How much longer can I last in this in between state of not being a teenager, but not being an adult either?