Sunday, August 11, 2013

Introducing Myself to Me.


In the past few months, I have become much more fascinated by plants than I used to be.  And art.  I don't know if I am just growing older, or if I am just growing more sentimental.  Perhaps my friends have influenced some of my new interests.  Then again, I know part of the change in me is because I am changing.  I am a little less lost than I was this time last year, and I am a little more decided.  Although part of me wonders if I have only convinced myself that I am less lost.  Maybe I am more deeply lost than I have ever been in my whole life.  Who really knows?  I may never know exactly where I am going, much like the wind.  I know who I am, and I am a drifter.  Or maybe not.  Maybe I say that for the sole purpose of sounding philosophical.  I'm like that sometimes you know.  Or do you?  You don't even know me, so how could you know?!  I will tell you one thing though:  I will never stop reintroducing me to myself.

Friday, July 26, 2013

Goodbye Summer, Goodbye Childhood.

I cannot believe summer will be ending in so soon.  I just want more time.  More time to hang out with my friends.  More time to think about the creative ideas that pop into my head.  More time to read.  More time before my childhood ends.  It will not be too long before everything changes, and where will that leave me?

 

Wednesday, July 3, 2013

To Be So Young, To Be So Old.

In less than 12 full days I will legally be allowed to consume alcoholic beverages, and this fact alone depresses the hell out of me.  I wish I knew why.  Lately, all I can think of is everything that has ever happened to me thus far in life.  I was sixteen, and everything was so what?  Full of opportunity?  I don't know if that is the right way to put it, but it's the only way I can think of right now.  I feel like I should have made so many decisions by now that I haven't made.  Kissed so many people that I haven't kissed.  I have so many stretch marks that I shouldn't have.  It is a weird feeling being so old, yet having all of your elders claim you are so young.  It all makes me wonder:  am I who I was?  How long will it take for me to get to who I will be?  How much longer can I last in this in between state of not being a teenager, but not being an adult either? 

Sunday, June 30, 2013

K.

Everything I want is so close.

I can only hope it all works out.

Tuesday, June 11, 2013