Wednesday, March 25, 2009

I Do Not Have All the Answers.

For once, I do not have all the answers. I don't usually act this way. At least, I hope I do not. Lately it just seems as if I want to feel sorry for myself, and I hate that I'm feeling this way. People know me as a person who always has a smile on her face. I am the cheerful type; the one who puts a smile on other people's faces when they are down.
Trust me, I am not saying I am a superhero in any way, shape, or form. I just take pride in myself when I am able to brighten someones day. Right now however, I just feel as if I want to be the one taken care of for a change. Don't get me wrong, I have great friends as well as great family. It is just like I want someone to keep reassuring me that I am good enough or pretty enough or anything else that might make me more secure.
As depressed as I may sound to you, I am not. Sometimes when I get too happy though, I start to feel insecure. I wonder, does anyone else feel that way? Do other people know what it feels like to be so happy that you start to wonder what will be the storm cloud that disrupts your happiness? It may seem pessimistic, it may seem morbid, but what goes around does have to come around at some point.
I guess in this situation, me and anyone who might feel this way just needs to realize what goes around does come around, although it may sometimes be hard to see. So if it is bad now there is bound to be something good happen eventually. I suppose I just need to cherish all of the good moments I have, and know that when it seems bad it is bound to get better.


himani said...

you know molly i related to this post of yours the MOST!!
for a moment i felt like m reading a mirror..i too feel the same like a million time.
and let me tell r terrifically optimistic girl!!

Diego said...

Good post. I can relate to it a lot, although I try to be much more cold about these things. I think I know the answers, I may be wrong but I have to stick to something. But even then the answers are not enough sometimes, even though I know where my emotions come from they wont go away. The urge we have to give emotional answers, specially when dealing with other people, is big.

Perhaps we should try to understand others better before giving away to the feelings.

Aziz said...

nice.. very wel written..