Thank You To Write Love on Her Arms.

I just finished an amazing story by a girl named Renee Yohe. She is the person who inspired the movement known as "To Write Love on Her Arms," and she has gone through so much more than most of us will ever have to go through. You think you have a lot of problems, well you read this book and then ask yourself that question again.
The book is called Purpose for the Pain, and of course I am in love with that title. I believe that there is a reason for everything, and even if something may seem like a misfortune now it could just be a blessing in disguise. I am not even sure how to describe this book in a way that will capture the emotion in this girl's story.
Most of the words in Purpose for the Pain were actually hand written journal entries by Renee herself. She has such a poetic way of describing things, and it makes you feel very sorry for her, but then you also feel so full of hope at the same time. You know that it will end up okay because she is still here today to talk about her experiences. She also thanks God for her blessings, and clearly states that her recovery and healing was all because of Him.
If you did not already know, hope is a very meaningful word to me. There was a time in my life when I do not know what I would have done without hope. There are still times in my life I do not know what else to do but hope. Hope is a foundation for so many people. There are people surviving, depending, relying on hope. We need to help give everyone hope. No matter how cheesy this sounds, we all need to pull together and save some lives.
To Write Love on Her Arms is an organization that gives so many people hope. I am sure it has saved many lives by just existing. It shows us that there is a point to our lives, and that we are not just living for ourselves. It is part of God's plan or else it would not be here. You are part of God's plan too, and that I think is one of the main reasons Purpose for the Pain was written. It was written to save lives. So please join me in supporting To Write Love on Her Arms. Go to the website and read the story of how it all started, and then read Purpose for the Pain, and know that there truly is a purpose for the pain.
http://www.twloha.com/
www.myspace.com/towriteloveonherarms

I Don't Forget...

"When you make a mistake, don't look back at it long. Take the reason of the thing into your mind and then look forward. Mistakes are lessons of wisdom. The past cannot be changed. The future is yet in your power." -Hugh White.

Mistakes are wisdom. Wisdom is knowledge. The past has already been written, but the future is a new notebook. Stop reading your old journal entries and write new ones.

That is what I am supposed to say, but is it really that easy? Maybe I am just a hypocrite, because I am the one who can't forget about the past.

I love my present, and look forward eagerly to my future, but one thing I don't do is forget...

The Feeling.

She stares out the window, and watches the rain fall. She sees her reflection staring right back at her. Then she begins to think of the many people who have come into her life, and the ones who have left. She thinks of the many good friends she has obtained over the years. Her expression is solemn while she draws a smiley-face in the condensation on the window. She is in a state of contentment, and she quite likes it there. The friends that have entered her life have come in for a purpose, as well as the ones who left. She knows this, and experiences a moment of enlightenment. It is like everything in her life suddenly makes sense in a way that she cannot put into words. That is because it is not about the words; it's about the feeling.

Lacking Inspiration.

Look, I know I need to write; I have not written on here as consistently as I normally do. However, I have been quite busy lately, and I have also been lacking inspiration. Hey, it happens to all of us at one time or another. Haha. Anyway, since I don't want to post anything new, I thought I'd at least post something old; I wrote this poem freshman year. So, here it is:

Nightfall.
Stars glimmer while animals skitter.
Shadows loom around.
People hang out lazily.

The cat senses something.
Winds pick up momentum.
Sprinkles begin outside
Adults warn relatives.

Then thunder booms suddenly.
Lightning makes children and animals hide.
Mama shouts "Flash Flood!"
Daddy swears unmentionable words.

Finally the storm ends.
Animals and children crawl out of cellars.
Adults call relieved relatives.
People clean up their yards.

It's Falling Into Place.

You know how people say that finally that their life is falling into place? Well, I think my life might be going through that process right now. Sure, things change, there is still drama, problems, and everyday difficulties. Yes, friends grow apart and disappoint you, and you learn that you can't always make everyone happy.
I just feel more whole this year than I've felt in a really long time. Even though there are still problems and everyday anxieties, it seems like I am dealing with them better.
I am definitely not perfect, but I feel that I am becoming a better person. I have friends that are making me a better person. I have more control over my life than I have had in a really long time, if not ever. For so long I allowed others to have control of my life, and finally I am getting the backbone to be able to take some control of my own life. I may not have taken total control yet, but I at least feel that I have more than I did in the past.
There are many people who have helped me, and continue to help me through my life journey, but I think a big reason why my life fell into place was me. My attitude changed, my insecurities lessened, and I changed. I am not the same girl I was when I started my freshman year, or even at the end of my sophomore year.
So just know that if you're having problems right now that they will end. If right now isn't the greatest time in your life, then wait. Look forward to your future, and try to love every moment you have in your life! Appreciate not only the big things, but also the little quirks of life. Allow people to help you, and allow everything to fall into place.
"When life gives you a hundred reasons to cry, show life that you have a thousand reasons to smile. "