Trials and Tribulations, Victories and Celebrations!!!!!

Well, well, well.  Today has been a monumental day in my life.  I FINALLY GOT MY DRIVER'S LICENSE!!!!!  =D  I am 18, so really I should have had it by now, but due to an accident in driver's ed (not my fault), I lost my nerve for awhile.  I feel a sense of freedom now, like I am a little bit more independent.  Watch the roads...here comes Molly!!!  

Another monumental day in my life is August 16th:  my first day of college.  Weird, isn't it?  How time flies!  I am sad because I have so many friends left at my high school, but I am also thrilled to meet an array of new people.  It will be fun to experience such diversity all in one place!  I am happy to be starting this new life.  Look forward to hearing about my trials and tribulations, my victories and celebrations!  Stay tuned!   

On a different note, August 9th was the second month anniversary of when Ryan and I (my boyfriend) officially started dating.  :)  Love is a wonderful thing!

Run With Me!!!

I have so much energy I feel like running - well, hypothetically anyway.  I can't get enough, but I am getting too much.  I am a wildflower that has been picked, but is still free to do what she wants.  Feeling owned but still feeling free; it's the best feeling in the world.  I am a walking, talking cliche, off to run through a field of wildflowers and butterflies.  When did I get so predictable?  However, I am more spontaneous than ever before.  I am so much more than ever before, and I feel welcome. 

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Ahhh...The Envies of Summer!

Ahhhhh.....summer.

If you are a student, like me, you probably breathed a sigh of relief after you finished that final exam.



If you are a parent, you may be dreading the fact that your kids will be home ALL summer.



If you are a teacher, a sense of freedom may have overcome you as you sat back and realized you won't have to deal with those whiny, nasty, dependent, kids all summer.



I think summer evokes different emotions in all of us. It is a time of freedom, but it can also be a time of boredom. I know that I, for one, start to miss my friends a great deal a few weeks into the summer. However, it is also a time envied by all of the other seasons. All of the other seasons just wish they could give off that popsicle licking, sprinkler running, watermelon eating, diving into the pool, overall good feeling of summer!

You may start to feel bored, and may only be thinking of those lazy days of sleeping ahead.
But you also can't deny it: summer brings out something wonderful and magical in us all!

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Secrets.

Secrets...
Do they make friends or lose them?
Save self-esteems or bruise them?
Put the innocent into captivity...
or allow prisoners to run free?
What would we be without them?
Absolutely nothing.
Do you agree or disagree?
Secrets.

The Feeling of Freedom.

All she sees is the road ahead of her; behind her there is nothing left. That was her past, and all she cares about now is right now. She hears the scuff her Converse make as they hit the pavement. She is running at full speed now. Her heart is pumping up and down, up and down. It is like music to her ears. She sees a cloud off in the distance and pretty soon it starts to sprinkle. Before long she is running in the midst of a full blown storm, but it feels good! Oh! It feels so good as the raindrops wash the perspiration off of her face. She is in a state of bliss. She wants to keep this feeling forever, and she never wants to stop running. What is this new feeling that is beginning to embrace her every movement?
Is this what freedom feels like?

Letting Go...Because I Have To.

Finally the ball is in my court, and you are in the palm of my hand. I clasp my fingers around you and do not let you go. After all this time you are mine; it is not the other way around anymore. I smile a victorious smile and enjoy the moment. You stubbornly try to escape from my determined hand, but I tighten my grip. I tighten the grip that I've wanted, needed, for oh so long...so long.

I am no longer a slave, and I feel the freedom envelope me. I smell the glory of change. The anger I have felt has alas won over my lamentation. I wipe off the last tear with the back of my hand and then wash my face literally and metaphorically.

Then I loosen the grip that I have worked so hard to obtain. I loosen the grip and set you free, because I do not want to enslave you as you enslaved me. That is not what I want at all. I just need you to go for my sake. I have to do this because it is best for me, and I finally have to do this. I have to believe I am better than that because it's true; I am. I am not being conceited; there are just times when someone deserves better, and in this case it was me.