Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Letter to My Present Self

Dear Present Self,

You are in a pretty good place right now.  Sure, you still have your worries, but who doesn't?  When it really comes down to it, your life is not looking very bad.

You have found someone wonderful who loves you for who you are.  That may sound cliche, but it's the truth.  He is your best friend, and the soulmate you have always desired.  He understands all of the quirks about you and your life that you feared no one ever could.  He is worth all the physical, mental, and emotional battles you have ever fought in your lifetime.

As for college, it started off quite well for you.  Don't you think?  There have been a couple of setbacks and discoveries you  made along the way, but that happens to the best of us.  If nothing else, you have made wonderful friends!  You fit in with them quicker than with any other "clique" you were friends with before.  They seem to really get you, and you hope some of the friendships that you have obtained this year will last for the rest of your life.

Overall, you have had a rather fabulous life thus far.  I know you will continue to do well, as long as you do not compromise your morals or values for anyone.  You have tried that in the past, and it didn't work, so obviously you should not try it again.  It will only bring you down, and I know you can do better than that.  Keep up the good work, and always be compassionate and caring of others, as you always have been.


Monday, November 29, 2010

Letter to My Past Self

Dear Past Self,

You worry too much.  You always have, and maybe you always will.  You shouldn't have to, but it is just in your nature to worry.  You wouldn't really be the same person if you didn't. 

I just want you to know how good your life will be.  There will be times in your life that will test you to the max.  The choice you have to make is whether you will allow yourself to play the role of victim during these tough times, or whether you choose to rise above it all.  I'll be honest with you.  There will be times when you choose to be the victim, but that's okay.  It does not make you a bad person.  After all, you are only human. 

You expect so much out of yourself, and because of that you sometimes expect too much out of others.  As a result of this, you find yourself disappointed every once in awhile - sometimes even more often than every once in awhile.

I know you get lonely a lot.  You have never really had much good luck with relationships, if any.  People have continually taught you that you can trust no one, because they will just leave you in the end.  However, I want you to know:  all of that will soon change.  It may seem like you have to wait forever, but remember that little quote you love so much?  "Some things in life are worth waiting for...even if it means waiting forever."  Yeah, that quote.  You knew it was true before, but you will come to realize you believe it with every fiber of your being.  You will find the one you have been waiting for all of your life.  Well, you will discover him anyway.  By the time you realize he is the one - the soulmate you have been wanting to meet all of your life - he will have been in your life for quite some time.  Suddenly, you will see him in a new light, and a metamorphosis will occur right before your eyes! 

Don't get me wrong; there are people who will let you down in life that you never though would, but you must always be the bigger person. You are so strong.  You have been through so much already, and you can make it through this.  I know you can, because I am you, and you are me.  Together, we can do this.


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Thursday, November 25, 2010

Happy Thanksgiving!!!!!!!! :)

Happy Thanksgiving, everyone!!!!!!  I know it is a little late, but I hope you all had a marvelous day!  :)  Whether you think so or not, we all have a great deal to be thankful for.  All of us are blessed in different ways.  If nothing else, be thankful of this life, and of how wonderful God is.

What have you done to celebrate today?  I ate lunch with some of my family, and then went to visit a couple of other family members.  It is exciting for me that the countdown to Christmas has started because I LOVE Christmas!!!!!  Now, I am just relaxing, and watching "Charlie Brown Thanksgiving."  You have to love those classics! 

Anyway, I hope all of you have a good day tomorrow - whether you are braving Black Friday shopping, or just sleeping in!  Have some fun and stay safe!

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Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Old Journal Entry: November 24, 2009

For quite some time now, I have wanted to share with you one of my old journal entries.  However, I could never quite decide which one to share, or else it just seemed like the wrong time to post it.  Finally though, I am proud to inform you all that I have found the perfect one to share with the world!  Here it is, from one year ago today: 

If you can't read that, below is my translation:
November 24, 2009

Maybe I never really loved you.  Maybe I love you.  Maybe I never fully stopped loving you.  Maybe.


Isn't it weird how I am very poetic, even when I am just writing in my journal?  It is funny to think, and slightly hard to believe, that this is only from one year ago today.  So much has changed since then...

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Figuring it Out

Trying to figure out what you want to do with the rest of your life isn't always a simple task.  How do you know if you are headed in the right direction?  It is kind of like putting a puzzle together.  There are so many pieces - so many possibilities.  Which one fits where?  Does it go here or there?

Where will I end up in this complex world full of choices and diversity, people and places, diversity and change?  Will I ever really fit in anywhere, or will I forever be stuck in the constant state of Limbo?  It's a thought provoking question, but there isn't really a definite answer.  Nobody ever really knows where they will end up from day to day.  There are plenty of know-it-alls that will tell you they know, but the truth is, only God knows for sure.

This is because wherever there is room for an answer, there is also room for a sliver of doubt.  We are merely humans; we can do very little to change the future.  We just have to sit back, relax, wait, and watch, as if the future is a movie playing right before our eyes...

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Monday, November 22, 2010

Life Lesson #3: A Warning for College Kids

Life Lesson #3:  There is just as much (or more) drama in college as there is in high school.

Sorry kiddos.  I hate to break it to you, but it's the truth - at least in my case.  Personally, I involve myself in the drama as little as possible, but that doesn't mean I don't see it all around me.  Maybe it's just because I am a theatre major, but I kind of doubt it.  ;)  (Pun intended!) 

Drama exists everywhere, no matter what you choose to do with your life.  Drama is like the ever existent girl (or maybe even guy) in high school who constantly had to one up you in everything.  I mean EVERYTHING!  Listen to the wise words of the song Girl Next Door by Saving Jane if you haven't already, because that is exactly the kind of thing I am talking about.

The one plus about drama in college compared to drama in high school, is that drama in college is usually easier to steer clear of.  Of course, you have to actually want to - unlike some people who say they want to, but really are the cause of all the drama in the first place!  Don't get me wrong.  College started off WAY better for me than high school did.  I am just warning you that if you think your life is suddenly going to be drama free the moment you turn eighteen, you may want to consider taking a dose of reality. 

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Thursday, November 18, 2010

Bear Hugs Make Everything Better

I found the above PostSecret on Photobucket, and it kind of brought me back to my childhood.  I can see some of you nodding your heads in agreement.  Don't lie!  I know you are!  ;)  Well, I have no shame, I'll admit it.  When I was little, I totally bought into the whole stuffed animals coming to life at night thing.  Didn't we all at one point or another?  I was a stuffed animal Fuhhh-reak!  Practically all of my stuffed animals had three names.  They all had stories.  They all had pasts, presents, and futures.

My favorite stuffed animal in particular growing up was Noel Chris Wilson - Noel for short.  :)  I cannot deny that I still sleep with him most of the time, even though he is a bear that has obviously seen many days.  I think I got him when I was in the fourth grade, around Christmastime.  Now that I look back on finding Noel, I am not sure what stood out to me about him.  However to this day, if there were a fire, I would save Noel over my iPod or phone ANY day. 

He has been through so many important moments with me.  I cannot tell you how many tears his poor fur has absorbed throughout the years.  He carries so many sentimental memories, and I swear on my life that I will probably bring him with me when I go off and get married.  I think it is true at any age:  sometimes all we need is a great big bear hug!

Sunday, November 14, 2010

Life Lesson #2: Never Let Go of a Person Who Understands

Life Lesson #2: 
When you find someone who understands you like no one else ever could, you should never let that person go.

This kind of person is a rare and special gift in someone's life, anyone's life.  Some people may never find a person who understands them so well.  If you find a person like this, don't take the person for granted.  Every other person will just look pale in comparison.

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

Something to Think About

Something to think about: 

What should you do when something that once saved your life is now threatening to destroy it?

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Monday, November 8, 2010

Life Lesson #1: Happiness Only Costs 25 Cents :)

How awesome was it when you could get everything you wanted in this world for 25 cents?

As children, we appreciated the smallest things in life - a piece of bubble gum, a dandelion, finger painting, and making mud pies.  However, as we grow older, sometimes we forget these little aspects of our life that made us so happy. 

Why are children generally happier?  The answer is simple:  they appreciate and enjoy the finer things in life.  They have no one to impress but themselves.  Adults, on the other hand, often fake a smile, go to dinner parties with people they don't really like, and buy overpriced junk that satisfies them for a moment at the most, but then the attraction seems to dwindle.

Life Lesson #1:  Live today as if you were a child.  Don't let stress get in the way of having a good time.  We don't have time to be embarrassed - we only have time to have fun, and be with those we love.  Forget everything else for a minute.

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Thursday, November 4, 2010

A Toast to Love

She was so lonely, she wanted to die,
until this beautiful boy caught her by surprise.
He said, "Don't do this darlin', just come with me.
I know how you feel; this world is so mean.
But girl, I beg you, just give me the night.
Let me try to make things alright."

She said, "How dare you tell me what I should do. 
Do I look crazy?  I don't even know you!"
"Well girl," he started, "I mean no offense,
but you are the one who wants to jump off this cliff.

She burst into tears and slowly said "Okay.
But what can you do to make tomorrow a better day?"
He said, "Well at this point darlin', I honestly don't know.
But how will you ever find out if you make the choice to go?"

She took a deep breath in, a deep breath out,
and said "Maybe, just maybe, I can try this out."

He said, "Darlin', I'm not perfect - not even close. 
But I'm always a gentleman, so I'd like to make a toast.
I will love you forever, until the day that I die.
As long as you stay, this will never be a lie."

She said, "Alright sir, I'll give you a day,
but I swear if you hurt me, you will send me to my grave."
He laughed and said, "Darlin', funny thing you should say. 
Right before I saw you, I was headed on my way."

She let out a quivering breath,
laughed a nervous laugh.
He hugged her for a long time and whispered,
"Darlin', this won't be the last."

Inspired by the songs:  "Self-Conclusion" by The Spill Canvas, and "When You Were Young" by the Killers
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