Friday, December 31, 2010

The Fairytale That Has Become of 2010.

I have trouble trying to find good enough words to describe 2010. It has been truly ASTOUNDING!  Last year, I worried I was going to be infinitely single - that I was never going to find anyone who completed me. In my journal on January 1, 2010, I wrote:

“I know I started out 2009 the same way, and I sometimes hate to admit it, but I am SO TIRED of  being single!  I don’t know why I am so doomed to be single!  Maybe 2010 will be different.  Maybe I’ll find someone who loves me, and respects me, and appreciates me.  This is what I hope.”

...And so I did. :)  I went out and found myself the man of my dreams, and I really only had to look right in front of me. In 2010, I accomplished the one thing I wanted most.  I cannot believe I found a guy who fit my description of what I looked for in a guy so perfectly. I used to be so bitter about love.  I hated to look at happy couples because I was terrified that I would end up as the lady with fifty cats.  However, I did not, and I am extremely grateful for that.

As for everything else in I mean, I had a great senior year of high school. I believe everyone who says that senior year is the best year, because it really is. With the way my freshman year of high school started out, I had no clue that my senior year of high school would be SO much better, to the extent that it was almost unbelievable. Totally unexpectedly, I was elected prom queen. I was humbled, unbelievably, by that whole experience. I won the award for having the most school spirit. I graduated and ended the long, but essential, journey we call “high school”. I was amazed when I was offered a theatre tuition waiver to college, along with a theatre scholarship. I cannot believe I was once the freshman girl who would stare down at the floor and who liked to make believe she did not exist.

With that said, I also started a new journey. I am now a freshman in college. I fully planned on majoring in theatre at the beginning of the year. Now, honestly, I am not so sure what I want to do with my life. I never knew it would be such a hard decision.  Other things have simply become more important to me than the theatre. Ryan, for example. I am not saying theatre is not at all important to me; it has been a huge part of my life for quite a few years now. I am just not sure how far along theatre and I will travel together, hand in hand.

I have definitely become a different person this year. As for lessons, I have learned many.  There have been people who have disappointed me this year, but of course, that is to be expected. I saw the flaws in someone that I basically considered to be perfect.  No one is perfect. Life teaches me that over and over again, every year. However, I also made many great friends this year. I never knew just how many great people I would meet in college.  I was amazed at how some of the people I met were, and are, so similar to me.  I have a wonderful life, and I am beginning to realize that more and more every day. This year (especially compared to last year) has been so incredibly easy. It has been a piece of cake. I have kept my emotions more in check and I have matured by leaps and bounds.

More people have pleased me than disappointed me.  One great loss I suffered this year was the death of my Papaw. It was totally unexpected and hard for me to cope with at times (even though I hardly ever showed it). I did not know how much I would miss him until he was gone. While that was a major downer, I still cannot forget all of the great memories from this year.

By far, the best thing that came about this year was my relationship with Ryan.  I think it shocked almost everyone who knew us when we suddenly got together. We had been talking for awhile, but not many people knew that our late night facebook conversations would soon become a full blown romantic relationship. Heck, not many people even knew we were having late night facebook conversations. However, I am glad that we did.  I know most people around my age say their relationship will last, and in a lot of cases it doesn’t, but Ryan and I are different.  I just know it will work out between us. I fully see us in fifty years, sitting on our couch together. I love him, and I am truly glad I have had to go through so many hardships to finally find him because now it is so good. I am glad that I waited to be with Ryan because some things are just worth waiting for. ;)

All in all, 2010 has been a blast. I look forward to creating a bunch of fun, new, memories in 2011 with Ryan and all of my friends. I cannot wait to see what this coming year has in store for me!!!!!

Monday, December 27, 2010

The Up and Coming Fashionista...Me??!

I was very proud of my outfit today.  I am turning into quite the fashionista!  ;) 

The quality of this picture isn't very good, but it's the clothes I wore today.  You can't tell from this picture, but my purse matches my shoes!  Ryan gave me the shoes for Christmas, and his sister gave me the purse - I love them!  (P.S. - if you can't read the back of my Converse, they say "Ryans Girl") :) are the shoes:

...And below is the purse!  (I know, not a very good picture, but I took it on my cell phone.  What do you expect?)

What do you think?  Do I have good fashion taste?  ;)

Friday, December 24, 2010

Merry Christmas 2010!!! :D

Can you believe it's already Christmas Eve 2010?
This Christmas is a bittersweet one for me.  It is our family's first Christmas without my Papaw, but it is also my first Christmas with Ryan.  Tonight, I will be celebrating Christmas with my family and Ryan (thankfully the snow didn't get too bad!) and tomorrow I will be doing the same, hopefully.  I hope you all have a VERY MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!  Look forward to an exciting, informative post about this past year very soon (since the new year is coming up), and get ready for a lot of great writing in 2011!

I hope all of you have a good holiday (whatever you may be celebrating!)  Just remember, Jesus is the reason for the season! Hallelujah, Jesus Christ was born!

Saturday, December 18, 2010

Life Lesson #6: Compatibility is Important in Relationships

Life Lesson #6:  Compatibility is one of the most important things in a relationship.

As of late, this is a lesson that has practically screamed out my name.  I don't think I have ever truly understood how much compatibility means in a relationship until recently.  However, it is very true.  Chemistry may cause the initial attraction, but no relationship will last without compatibility.  This is usually true in friendships also.  Opposites may attract, but similar souls stick together.  Remember that the next time you consider your potential romantic interests, or future friendships!  :)


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Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Life Lesson #5: Sometimes People Care, But Can't Show It

Life Lesson #5:  Sometimes someone cares about you in some way, shape or form, but something else gets in the way. 

It could be pride, vanity, selfishness, jealousy, or a number of other things.  Either way, there are many things that can prevent people from showing the love they feel for you.  It's hard sometimes - for us humans to admit that we are wrong sometimes.  Likewise, it also can be hard for people to admit their emotions - how much they care, or why they did what they did.  It's understandable, though it can be very hard to deal with at times.  Sometimes there is someone who meant a lot to you and you just want to hug them, but you can't because something happened between the two of you.  You aren't able to just pretend like nothing happened.  And that's okay.  You shouldn't have to. 

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

We've All Got Baggage

"I should tell you, I've got baggage too." 

-Lyrics from the song "La Vi Boheme" from the musical Rent

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Monday, December 13, 2010

My True Passion

"What do you want for supper?"  -My Mom

"I don't know what my passion is anymore!" -Me

After saying that, I realize now what my true passion is:

Sunday, December 12, 2010

The Little Joys of Christmastime

All the world is a coffee shop,
with extra whipped cream on top.
Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow!

Outside it's cold, but inside it's hot.
A plate of cookies sits by the cot.                                                   
Hot chocolate fills the kettle and the pot.
Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow!

Look at the snowmen as the children play.
They are practically alive on this crisp winter day.
Bring on the bells, the gifts, and the sleigh!
Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow!

Carolers pass out candy canes.
Santa rings a bell at the Christmas parade.
Family and friends celebrate the day.
Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow!

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Monday, December 6, 2010

Life Lesson #4: Adults Don't Know it All

Life Lesson #4:  Authority figures you once thought were perfect, always have the potential to let you down.

You know how when you were a little kid, you thought everyone older than you was so cool?  You thought your parents were perfect, your teacher was the smartest person in the world, and the older kids always had fun.  Then you hit the teenage years.  Your parents embarrass you, you think your teacher is an idiot, but you still strive to be older and older.  You still look up to the adults, whether you will admit it or not.  Well, you know what?  Sometimes you should, sometimes you shouldn't.  Despite what adults tell you, they do not always have all the answers.  I would know, since I am legally an adult.  We don't know it all.  Even people much older than me don't know everything.  We all make mistakes, and there is always room for improvement in everyone.  If you are a kid, you should still take into account what adults have to say, but after awhile, you need to start forming some of your own opinions.  If you are an adult, don't get too self-confident.  You do not know everything like you think you do.

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Thursday, December 2, 2010

Letter to My Future Self

Dear Future Self,

I wonder what you are like.  What did you decide to do with your life?  I hope you know, because I sure don't.  It's a tough thing:  deciding what you want to do every day for the rest of your life.

I am happy to know that you probably have a wonderful life partner.  If you didn't stick with Ryan, I'll be very disappointed in you.  I know he will always protect you and keep you safe.  You better keep him happy.

I hope the career you chose suits you.  I hope it is fulfilling, but also leaves you time for fun with family and friends.  I hope you are healthy, and still feel like a kid at heart.  Who knows, maybe you have kids of your own by now. 

Gosh, there is so much I want to know about you!  There are so many questions I want to ask you.  Did you ever get a tattoo, or any piercings besides your ears?  Where do you live?  Did you graduate college?  Are you married?  Do you have kids?  How many?  Of course you can't answer these questions for me yet.  I am just looking forward to finding out. 

I feel like I should end this letter with a profound piece of advice, but what can I tell you that you don't already know?  Maybe you should be giving me advice, but I know that isn't possible, though you are wiser and more experienced.  I guess you will just have to teach me what to do from day to day, as I gradually get older.  I bet you didn't do such a bad job with my - our - life.  :)


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