Tuesday, September 10, 2013

A Tongue Twister of Lies

I tried to drown my sorrows, but they still come up for air.
How can a person compete when he or she can never compare?
It is such a thin line of what we should do and what we should not. 
How do we decide what we ought to do, and what we ought to not?
You may say it's a tongue twister, but nevertheless it is very much true.
You never really know anything unless it happens directly to you.

Sunday, August 11, 2013

Introducing Myself to Me.

In the past few months, I have become much more fascinated by plants than I used to be.  And art.  I don't know if I am just growing older, or if I am just growing more sentimental.  Perhaps my friends have influenced some of my new interests.  Then again, I know part of the change in me is because I am changing.  I am a little less lost than I was this time last year, and I am a little more decided.  Although part of me wonders if I have only convinced myself that I am less lost.  Maybe I am more deeply lost than I have ever been in my whole life.  Who really knows?  I may never know exactly where I am going, much like the wind.  I know who I am, and I am a drifter.  Or maybe not.  Maybe I say that for the sole purpose of sounding philosophical.  I'm like that sometimes you know.  Or do you?  You don't even know me, so how could you know?!  I will tell you one thing though:  I will never stop reintroducing me to myself.

Friday, July 26, 2013

Goodbye Summer, Goodbye Childhood.

I cannot believe summer will be ending in so soon.  I just want more time.  More time to hang out with my friends.  More time to think about the creative ideas that pop into my head.  More time to read.  More time before my childhood ends.  It will not be too long before everything changes, and where will that leave me?


Wednesday, July 3, 2013

To Be So Young, To Be So Old.

In less than 12 full days I will legally be allowed to consume alcoholic beverages, and this fact alone depresses the hell out of me.  I wish I knew why.  Lately, all I can think of is everything that has ever happened to me thus far in life.  I was sixteen, and everything was so what?  Full of opportunity?  I don't know if that is the right way to put it, but it's the only way I can think of right now.  I feel like I should have made so many decisions by now that I haven't made.  Kissed so many people that I haven't kissed.  I have so many stretch marks that I shouldn't have.  It is a weird feeling being so old, yet having all of your elders claim you are so young.  It all makes me wonder:  am I who I was?  How long will it take for me to get to who I will be?  How much longer can I last in this in between state of not being a teenager, but not being an adult either? 

Sunday, June 30, 2013


Everything I want is so close.

I can only hope it all works out.

Tuesday, June 11, 2013

Wednesday, May 8, 2013

Just Wanna Be Famous

Chicago is my favorite place in the world.

Thursday, April 4, 2013

Run On Sentence

Sometimes, I just see things online, and everything online describes me, and every quote ever describes me, and every picture ever describes me, and I am just a collage of internet crap.

Tuesday, February 19, 2013

This is How I Feel

I have tried to write several times recently, but then I always hit the backspace key.  In fact, I did that just a moment ago.  Everything I try to write just seems stupid.  I feel like I am trying to force it, which I am, but still.  Why does nothing in life inspire me anymore?  I miss the me I used to be.  So many things run through my head, but not anything creative or new.  It's all the same old thing.  Am I losing it?  What is "it" anyway?  Am I losing myself?  My sense of humor?  My creativity?  My friends?  My grip on life?  I don't know.  I don't seem to know anything anymore, and it sucks.  I am so tired of holding in how I feel, just so others don't worry or feel bad.  So, this is how I feel, and right now, this is me.

Wednesday, February 6, 2013

Note to Aliens

Being a human being...it's exhausting.  Just say no.

Monday, January 14, 2013


You will find me here a little while longer.