I have tried to write several times recently, but then I always hit the backspace key. In fact, I did that just a moment ago. Everything I try to write just seems stupid. I feel like I am trying to force it, which I am, but still. Why does nothing in life inspire me anymore? I miss the me I used to be. So many things run through my head, but not anything creative or new. It's all the same old thing. Am I losing it? What is "it" anyway? Am I losing myself? My sense of humor? My creativity? My friends? My grip on life? I don't know. I don't seem to know anything anymore, and it sucks. I am so tired of holding in how I feel, just so others don't worry or feel bad. So, this is how I feel, and right now, this is me.