This is How I Feel

I have tried to write several times recently, but then I always hit the backspace key.  In fact, I did that just a moment ago.  Everything I try to write just seems stupid.  I feel like I am trying to force it, which I am, but still.  Why does nothing in life inspire me anymore?  I miss the me I used to be.  So many things run through my head, but not anything creative or new.  It's all the same old thing.  Am I losing it?  What is "it" anyway?  Am I losing myself?  My sense of humor?  My creativity?  My friends?  My grip on life?  I don't know.  I don't seem to know anything anymore, and it sucks.  I am so tired of holding in how I feel, just so others don't worry or feel bad.  So, this is how I feel, and right now, this is me.