Friday, September 26, 2008

Unsettling Memories; The Strength in Remembering.

She feels a sense of pride when people say that she is the happiest person they have ever met, or when they simply say she seems happy all the time.

It is true now, but there was a time when it wasn't.

There was a time when no matter how happy she was on the outside, her insides were crying as if there were no tomorrow.

She takes a deep breath and steadies herself; it isn't like that anymore. She's not even the same person that she once was! Still, there are times when her mind subconsciously decides to wander back to that time of angst and sorrow. It was a difficult time in her life, and it is definitely a hard time to revisit through her thoughts and memories.

However, it would be even worse if she did not revisit it. She does not want to forget those memories no matter how unsettling they may be. She knows that in the end, it was all worth it. If she had not been through so many painful days and nights, she would not be the same person she is now. She would be totally different and not nearly as strong. She now knows what true strength is, and it makes her smile both on the inside and out.

She smells the familiar scent of the air around her, and she knows she is where she is meant to be.

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